Plain People Without Music

2011-04-25T23:44:00.001+08:00

IT WOULD BE BEST IF I COULD HUG THE PEOPLE I WANT OPENLY AND FREELY

bored laa oiii !!!

2010-12-21T09:48:00.010+08:00

its gonna get bored starting from now. i tink i wont be online much heh.

i guess i miss someone hah .

idk i guess it all comes from my hols. kept tinking of my friend and wish i could share the fun i had with her . lols haha

am i falling in love? i tink ?

i still remember the way she jump infront of me like so happy telling me that she got into some kind of thing . i was like melted sia so cute !!! its damn cute i mean its the first time i see her doing that and it was so idk how put it in words im so lost lols .

but guess i wont be putting my hopes high again this time i'll just go with what i can get heh. she like someone already hah i aint gonna barge in. all i could think is that i need to have the concept of she seeing me as only a friend cos i know she can get better guys than me . haha

lucky nowadays ppl using tumblr and im with this deadblog only to myself lols .

I wish to have a big hug from you before u go ! :'(

i just hope that the night stars that she stares will alwaes be the stars i staring at too.

alryte i'll be gone then till next time :3 !

Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated

ITS ONLY been 3 days since she's gone and imma like a crazy person staring at lappy alone . FOREVER ALONE ! ):

oh and guess what ! i cant sleep yest thinking bout her ! sigh .

I just wish for this christmas that that she would hug me for the first time ever ! when she got back home to singapore ! ): Just a big long hug !

Tday 27/12/10

She just twitted saying she's coming back on tis fri ! Ohmy i cant wait ! im smiling all the way since i saw her twit . i guess the day she went abroad is the day i realised that im in love ? idk

But one things for sure im not a man who would cheats a girls feeling and i do not easily let go of a girl. cos i understand how it feels to be cheated :( Thats y i'll be loyal the girl whom i love !

Come back home !!! i really miss you so much ! ):

I LIED ...

2010-12-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

How i wish i could cheer people up when they are sad .
Thats why i hate to make things worst and mostly tend to lie to make that person happy .
But one thing if the person knows im lying then the trust between the person and me will be lost forever. sigh why isit so hard to tell the truth ?

maybe im just scared to lose a friend ?losing just one friend to me is like very precious to me . idk ):

maybe im too soft hearted ? but i cant be mean to people . i just cant. cos i know myself that karma will hit back .

or maybe im just desperate to have a girlfriend that i cant accept the fact that the girls whom i like all doesnt like me back ? hah life, full of misteries which u wont get an anwer ever .

I shall hug all my bestfrends and be happy that they are my friends in my life !

without friends i guess i'll be crazy talking to myself alone .

HUGS !!!!

2010-12-14T01:59:00.001+08:00

I just nid a BIG HUG everyday for atleast 5 mins and idk y but i just want it can ? ):

A brand new look

2010-10-17T02:33:00.006+08:00

WELL tis blog is dead . so i suppose that im the only who reads this which is like my diary not dairy eh . now time is 2.34am and im still not sleepy -.-

ok well where shld i start . hmmm , ok im still single mingle to the dingle lols still searchin for the right one . well people said dun waste your time having gf cos it will waste your youth life but then in my opinion , i have not felt love yet for once in my life hence i tend to want to know more abt tis feeling , u can say im like jiwang or wtf . i dun giv a damn. well i hope to only meet a girl which will give me her attention as i am willing to do it for her too . maybe this is jus a teenage love where when we grow up and work , we break up due to conflicts or wad, it may be an experience of my life though . ppl say the feeling of pain in the heart when u broke ur relaptionship is so life threatening that the guy will do anyting irrational. but damn i wish i could have a girl , to really hug her tightly together . go out tgether . and y did i say all tis maybe my frends were usually bz or cant go out then it also become a prob to me sitting at home rottin -.-

there is a girl which whom i know , she will criticise me if i did not layan her or tok to her for a long time . well sumtimes i got bored to her actions which are so self centered. i hate it sia . jus bcos i talk to u nicely layan baik2 doesnt make me i like that girl , but on the other hand i dun want to dissapoint her aso , i jus chilland talk to her normally as i did , sigh idk maybe she like me ? but then i do not feel the love between us ): sorry

Also a frend of mine which i usually disturb her as my gf , sumtimes i feel like hugging her tightly jus for a day really2 tight , cos maybe i really nid a hug from a girl up till now i couldnt find , i aso dunnoe y , but maybe she has tat soft side which sumtimes i makes me happy, though she was just following to my actions playing as a gf , i sumtimes like to let out my probs to her even though she was heck care or wad , in the end i mean i still rely on her to "manja" arnd her , but then our intrest differs from each other like towards my way of thinking and her way of thinking ? but i dun care , she is small cute and to me cuddly i could carry her anywhere easily lols ,well even if i were to love her maybe i would not be accepted cos love is sumting which i cant force ryte, i aso did those tings that she hate and alwaes disturbs her in msn or anywhere and being irritating also, but i do really respect for what she had done , jus layan me all the way without complaining to me . and also how can i be her dream guy. she also have a taste of her own like those cute and hunky guys at her workplace or other place lols. hmm idk wad fate has in store for me XD but WTH i jus wish her to have a nice bf in in the future . and i also have confidence that she will succeed in her future life , thats a comfirm by looking at her personality.

hmm ok so stop abt those lovey2 jiwang stories ok .

now back to my skool and hobbies , well i have chosen digital photography module but then i dun have a camera yet lols nvm , i hope its gonna be a fun module . and aso my guitar skills have gotten rusty , i found a new friend , her name was nisa lols but not my secondary nisa tat one , she plays guitar too , well i wanted like mcm play guitar with her togher but idk how to say or tell her . sigh ): now is 3.11am sigh im still not sleepy yet cos i slept in the afternoon jus now .

well in the end of this story , for what i tink im still sticking to the idea where i want to get a gf in my teenange life, maybe jus bcos of her , i can do alot of things more better , maybe i will want to look good hence i will try to go gym lose some wights , and aso my studies too , if i study wif her maybe i got the motivation to study harder. it all comes to sumone i nid to rely on , i hope if i were to get a gf i hope that she giv me the attention as i will giv it to her also and when it comes to love im taking tis seriously , i'll take care of her properly as a real guy would do. so ok im done here till we meet again san tiger ! be happy bro !

basically im happy to listen to this song because this is the only song which i can sing to its tune . XD

she's the one !

2010-04-05T21:47:00.005+08:00

She look so beautiful in her scarf ! oh pretty please ! i am really "cair" seeing by just a photo of her... no words can describe her and if i were to describe u in words , it will not be the same as how i want to describe u in my heart.

I'll pray for u everyday and i'll be waiting for u in our future skool.
Pretty please dun forget me cos every seconds tat counts i'll be rmmbering u even when im asleep ! :D

Never in my heart physically or in ur heart that I see u in a bad way !

Please dun forget me .

2010-03-03T21:04:00.003+08:00

Why when im happy , there's alwaes someone interupting ... haiz... a chance tat i got was short but it was fun ... its the first time we talked otp abt our lifes... though its short...it gave me a full smile that i hardly take it off the whole night... thank u !!!

a new day to begin

2010-02-24T19:59:00.002+08:00

Well its been a long times since i updated tis dusty old blog , i wonder if my blogskin has grasses , comfirm by now will be damn long aredy the rumput2... k well erm toking about how am i, im fine , cant wait to go to skool ! hahas. and i want long2 hair aso ! im left with half a march to spend my hols and the rest of it i spent it on working . My wish really came true but the other one didnt ... i wish to pass my o lvls between 15- 20 and i got 19 pts... syukur... and ano one was a partner... up til now i couldnt get ... nvm when there is still hope i wont giv up my Mary Jane .

I have also found out sumting intresting abt ppl and their problems ... those ppl wif problem and could not tend to their parents will go to their friends and ask for advice and those who could ask advice from their parents will tend to keep their probs a secret to their frends... and im the one who tells ppl my probs , bcos of bro having relation if other girl buat prangai then im also been lectured ,saying tt lau ade pmpan tros habis smua smpi tk igt dunia tk igt fam... but they are wrong , not me im not like tt , not like him which does not think ahead . i tink for the future , sumtimes i tink wad ppl tink on their minds . For eg , in msn , evryday u tok to ur frend and everytme u online u will tok to them , but then sumtimes i tink tt im disturbing them and i feel like im pestering them to tok to me .

And also if i have a girl , would i be putting my girl first or my fam, of course family and y did i say tt , if my girl were happen to be my wife in the future , she is in my family now and im putting her first than my friends...but nowadays looks are more important , then attitude ... and tats WAD MAKEs me have low self confidence , im not handsome, im black and fat , hence to me fate isnt in my hands its the girl who i want has it , she has the decision to accept me... i am so scared to tell mary jane wads inmy heart ... im scared we'll nvr tok or go out again ever... but sumtimes she gives me hope which brightens me up and sumtimes i felt tt am i really disturbin her by txting , msn , and other tings , sumtimes i wanted to tok to her otp but im scared im too boring and disturbing her again... i dun like to dsturb ppl tats y i dun tok to ppl first, i would rather them toking to me ... but then ppl mistaken it by thinking im not friendly and ego or wad... well i wish they knew...Wads my wish left is i want my Mary Jane but she is more beautiful than spidermans Mary jane...

HOPES NEVER DIE until she is taken ... then i wont ever disturb her relationship... Nvr would i want to crush peoples relationship , it causes hatred n sadness and all the bad tings...

2009-10-16T23:34:00.002+08:00

thanks for wad u have done. i know saying thanks isnt enough but i think i was in the wrong... im sorry... i hope u hav better frends than me ... Goodbye ...